I'm so wasted right now. Not physically or mentally. But emotionally wasted. Why do these things happen to me? I didn't wish for all this to happen. All I ever asked for is to have a good life, have a happy family and also have great friends. I don't usually behave this way, but right now, life's being a bitch. First my dad, now this. Fuck life. I feel like giving up. 

I miss you dad. I really miss you. Be strong. You know that I'm always with you. It's a fact that you're a fighter dad, so fight. I still need you dad. I still need your guidance. Without you, I'm weak. I still want you to scold me when I go against your wishes. I still want you to reprimand me for making the wrong decisions. I still want you to praise me when I achieve something. So be strong dad. I love you.

I can still recall the things you say to me about love. You told me not to get emotionally attached to someone. Things will start to become complicated. I didn't know the consequences would be this bad. Right now, I feel that my heart is being shredded apart into unrecognizable little pieces. I didn't know that a single girl would have this effect on you. How I wish right now that life had a reset button. If it does, then, all this would not have happened. But I know that this is all wishful thinking. All I have to do now is to forget it all and carry on with the present. I lucky to have great friends and for that I'm thankful to God. I think that for now, I'll just let things happen and just get along with it. After all, I always say to myself, life is easy, don't complicate it by creating problems. I guess it's time to grow up and start to heed my way of life. =)

Life is about adapting to changes. In this game, failing to do so results in your own downfall. Adapting to your surroundings is actually pretty easy, contrary to popular beliefs. The first creatures that emerged from the seas adapt and change according to their surrounding. They grow legs instead of fins and lungs instead of gills. This process is called evolution and it is an excruciatingly slow process catalysed by natural selection. The results, land creatures began to emerge and overtime, our species Homo Sapiens rule the earth. We humans have been adapting to our surroundings for centuries now. For instance, the cavemen invented tools to make their daily lives better. They use stone shivs to cut meat and defend themselves from wild animals. Currently in the 21^st century, us, the modern humans, invent gadgets and devices beyond our wildest imagination to help us even with petty tasks in our daily lives.

These amazing examples of how creatures are able to adapt to their surroundings should be a lesson to us. We humans grow everyday. From out humble beginnings as a baby, we grow into toddlers, then into adolescents and finally our body reach maturehood and we become what people nowdays call adults. Reaching adulthood is not just about growing physically, but also mentally, emotionally and spiritually. When our body grow, our minds should also grow proportionately. Greater minds means that we are able to adapt to our ever changing surroundings easier. It will make us sharper and more quick witted. Our minds will be able to asses a problem, calculate the risks and then project a rational reaction to the problem accurately. Without a developed mind, an individual would not be able to do so.

The reason why I am writing all this is because recently, I was admitted to a pre-university foundation program at UiTM Shah Alam and I am proud to say that I am a member of the law faculty here. Blissful is the accurate word to desribe my feelings here. I have great friends, the food is good, the seniors are well-mannered and so on. But, I am sad to say that most of my batch mates are not matured enough to adapt and change according to their surroundings. This is not high school anymore. There are no teachers to guide us. All the work including registering for our own course is our own responsibility. Here, we do all the things on our own. But sadly, they(most of my batch mates) act like children, waiting to be spoon fed for everything. Their behaviour is unacceptable for a student their age. We, the so called teenagers that are going to reach adulthood, must think and act like a grown man. Respect others and be responsible of our own actions. We should not act like monkeys in a lecture. We should not interrupt our seniors when they are talking, and, we should never ever be rude to our elders. What the hell happened to our Malay culture that we are so proud of?

BUDI BAHASA BUDAYA KITA =)